When you change your life, you get feelings. When You've made mistakes, you get feelings. Also, what I write isn't always 100% about me, Ican put myself into emotional spaces. And this one took
A turn I wasn't expecting.
This one is a work in progress
Today my failures haunt me
Chipping at my soul
Planting saplings of doubt
And anxiety pangs I cannot dispel
What if?
If I?
Endless churning in my mind
Gnawing at me from inside
The weight of insignificance
Presses into me and whispers
You don’t have to go on like this
What if?
If I?
I sabotaged those still smoldering bridges
With such callous confidence
Because returning seemed unthinkable
Even though doing so would ease my pain
What if?
If I?
Distance and silence fill my days
As those once held dear
Had to go away
For their own sanity
What if?
If I?
Just another story of addiction
Filling the void with
Substances physical and ethereal
Dulling the pain for a bit
What if?
If I?
In the darkest moments
I am surprised
By what appears in my thoughts
What if I gave into the dark?
Would anyone even notice?
If I?