Another Silent Night
I listen to his rhythmic snore
With a timbre and resonance that soothes
My confused soul
As I ride the lightning rails
Of my newly manifested crooked path
I marvel at my fate
Making wishes that come true
And some with unexpected fulfillment
I am in awe
The sheer number of things going my way
Surely point to some predestined trajectory
Or fall
I am bending the universe into my direction
By merely believing it possible
I am power
And as I believe I direct and orchestrate
The situations and people in my life
I know I do not
Those in my orbit capture me into theirs
Intertwining our combined trajectories
Altering inertial paths
I listen to the yearning notes of meadow slow
Creating longing for things lost
Yet I am happy
Filling the holes in my life I never knew I had
Yet always knew I had
I am whole
And pieces that I thought fit perfectly
Worn by age, scorn, and apathy
Have been released
Stepping out of my home on high
Overlooking the city I am about to change
And I am free
And the snoring continues
Lulling me into relaxation and wistfulness
Goodnight my love
Sleeping alone in my familial mansion
I have removed my chortles and snores
And found my own
I will miss you forever
But her silent saboteur’s blows still connect
And I am done with that
As you said perhaps after some time
we can both stand the loss of our shared love
friends for life
I hope the third time’s a charm
Snoring next to me
Hoping he is all he doesn’t say he is
As he reveals more of himself
And I let myself merely believe it is possible
That I am in love
Newfound feelings and intensities unknown
Hands strong voice deep
Sensitive as myself
I begin the believe that my fear
Of being foolish so soon
Was not necessary
A lot can happen in 6 months
I have some stories to tell
Even as mine is still being written
I need pursuit
I need protection
I need passion
Unbridled
And gentle rebuke
When deserved
I have a lot to learn
And I have many teachers
Who I think will be patient with me
Happy New Year
Everything is possible
I am living proof
Release all your secrets
You are not your trauma
You are unique by definition
The only reason you can’t
Is you believe you can’t
Merely believing that you might
Will make you better
Don’t give a fuck what anyone else thinks
You live as authentically as you can
And don’t change who you are for another person ever
And don’t wait for someone to change
You will be disappointed
Only pursue people who understand you and are attracted to you.
Period.
Let me repeat that
Only pursue people who understand you and are attracted to you.
Period
You capacity for joy is diminished
and divided amongst your secrets
If you have no secrets
Your capacity approaches infinity
And the normal cares of the world
The things that bug us
That weigh on us
That distract us from being ourselves
Will vanish
Happy New Year to my families
To the ones who occupy pieces of my heart
Both old and new
And Happy New Year from us to you
Wherever you are, home is
So celebrate a year of possibilities
Don’t delay your happiness
You are too important
You are too important
You are too important
You are too important
You are too important
You are too important
You are too important
You are too important
You are too important
You are too important
You are too important