Chase. My Man!
Updated: Nov 17, 2022
<THIS PIECE IS NOT FINISHED. ADDING A FEW MORE VIDEOS AND TAKING IT TO LEVEL 6>
This is a long piece. It did not start out that way. It was just some playing around with the term chase my man. This thing goes down rabbit holes and back up again.
I recommend you not read this unless you have a bit of time to devote. Because there are videos, websites references, and you really need all that to experience the fullness of what I have put here--it is all one big experience.
LEVEL 1
One of my new friends is Chase Holland. A superstar about to nova on the world.
But this poem isn't really about him...
LEVEL 2
This poem is not about him ...
canadian friends aboot him...
yes the root is him...
this is not his hymn
holy fucking homonym
eminem m&m peanut purple feminine
google that shit there's a gem in them
be self evidencial anemone
enemy friend in me cleverly
severely
said quite airily
play with me derierrily
london dairy air ilee
processairily
pronounced pro sess air ill lee
and its aboot time I got back to the root
I am groot
foot (foooo-t)
suit
lute
stringed harp
stringed heart
heart string
art string
arts sting
ting
ting
thing
thing
athing
ding ding
thing
thing
bing
bing
bee
being
being
being
be
ing
breathing
breathing
being
seeing
breathing
beating
heart beating
heart bleeding
heart bleeting
hard breathing
conceding
now reading
i am not chase holland
this is not his hymnal
this is him though
not him but HIM
HIM is me solo
this is my him null
this is him full
himfle
waffle
awful
slothful
don't be wrothful
don't be wrongful
be him-fle
be they-fle
be us-fle
can be interpreted as be U-essfle
which is jingiotic
a mix of idiotic and jingoistic
i am linguistical mystical colonel angus ( anal | cunning).lingus-ful lustful lug anagramatically lustful nig
oh shit
colonial colon hole
however i digress
climbing so far out of that rabbit hole
perhaps use-ful
yous full yous-full youthful you th full ewe full cat stevens yu-
sef
a intentional wormhole into my other unintentional but more confidential meaning
and as I'm thinking of preening about whatever rhymes with meaning
I stop
my mind is reeling
and I am endless feeling
my thoughts congealing
breathing pleading
begin my healing
I should be kneeling
confessional revealing
however I digress
let me climb out of this pinhole back to the workhole in the rabbit hole
have I mentioned this is my foxhole
no faux whole
comfortable numb whoa
and I can think of the right words to say
whoa whooaaaah
whoah......woaah oh...
this is to meta
meta meh TAH
meT TULL
men T
is there a word that means the sound you make when you finish start
I mean the end of start
t
google will be my friend - duhh
tuhh
tuhh
The true T sound (also known as hard T) is found in words such as top, hat, late, and toy. (The true T sound is simply the regular T sound.)
the stressed syllable or part of a consonant cluster
stresssssed sil-labble
esss is the stressed sil-labble in my previous lines' syllable drabble
admit it...you originally thought 'sil-labble drabble'
but I wrote it sill-ah-bull drabble
but your brain is abble
And so I resume....finally....
but your brain is abble to scrabble (pronounced scare-abble and scrah-bull)
if people can be non gender conforming enby
(I am a fan and I envy...you're enby? I'm enfy as in ENFJ or ENFP...ENF* ...)
(ENF* is pronounced en-fee)
But wait..here it comes...mom's spaghetti...
I'm benfy
No really, Steve Benfy. Benfyld.
Steve b-ENF*-ull-d
ull als means eye
so Steve b-ENF*-ull-ld
pronounced Steve Benfield (not Steve ben-fulled which you visually would be led to believe)
I could write Steve Stieve
oh hell. Steve + Believe = Stieve + beleve
which is still pronounced Steve Believe
wordplay without decay is my foray
Rebecca De Mornay makes me horney hey hey
LEVEL 3
And right after I typed her name, I had to go find this...
(you need to play this video because we are about to go with the rhythm..)
INCREASING AMPLITUDE
riding the tracks click clack
oh my god these notes are the sound a train makes going over the track
why have I not in 40 years thought of that
I am floating on the tracks increasing speed of attack
riding the waves
and synthesizer notes coming louder and building tension
LEVEL 4
and I need to know those notes and off to google I go breaking the song
and it leads me to this
'So Anyway...
its nine stages long
the rythm of this is coming from the left most mini trigger store
I use a trigger sequencer to advance a voltage sequencer which is then controlling the pitches of the oscillator then the trigger sequences will control the envelope generators as well as the..uh..pitch sequence..
YES...
The notes
F - E flat - F - C - F - F - E flat - C
And this man (Suit & Tie Guy) is speaking in words that I only slightly understand
and WOW i did not know I was a Synth Nerd (a term from his website)
And the site is synthopia
Synesthesia synthopia is synthesis my sin thesis is in pieces
LEVEL 5
We have reached Inception people. Eat your heart out Christopher Nolan.
Ain't that a kick in the head...
But wait! There's more....at the bottom of this stack..
LEVEL 6
"When I get to the bottom
I go back to the top of the slide
Where I stop and I turn and I go for a ride
'Til I get to the bottom and I see you again
Yeah, yeah, yeah, ha-ha-ha!"
Helter Skelter, The Beatles
LEVEL 3...continued
ding ding ding be bum de bum bum
F - E flat - F - C - F - F - E flat - C
the feeling that goes through me is
F - E flat - F - C - F - F - E flat - C
a growing tension reflection aural erection oops redaction no action liquefaction
julia = api.fetch('https://robertherrick/api/uponjuliasclothes/subject')
liquefaction = julia.clothesand you have to watch the video because wow
they took out like every other frame and doubled what remains giving the video a staccato domain for one of the sexiest most sensual movie refrains and it entertains making for gonadial strain because DAMN
And at 4:21 the spark of the track from the train is my last ahhh body division schism from jism of my onanism because how can you not be turned on by that visual and audio masterpiece?
every once in a while you have to say what the fuck
LEVEL 2...continued
what can I say perhaps not so gay
In a I first saw this when I was 18 kind of way
And it still is fresh and raw to me to this day
LEVEL 1...continued
So back to the main poem thread...
So whenever he reaches out to me on instagram, I immediately say 'chase my man'. In which I really mean 'Chase. My Man!'
I then typed 'Chase! My Man!' but that has different meaning...because it sounds like Chase is interjenctional instead of declarational. Of which I was intentional. But in some sense it is omnidirectional although only got then when I reflectional.
And then...I get this really weird feeling...'chase my man'...whoah...that sounds pretty damn fun. To chase my man. And that is something quite new to my thinking....
And so tonight, when Chase messaged me, I said 'Chase my man!!'...I had that feeling AGAIN....
And so I wrote about it....
And like a lot of my poetry....it wound up somewhere I did not expect..
in fact this one...this one started before the events in the second part had happened
and when I originally wrote this and wondered 'why does chase my man' sound so interesting...and it took me to a place that is intensely personal. I will reveal no more...
Chase my man
which is both directive and imperative
either one operative
I have the will to live
No matter if something has to div
Eye for an eye
Divided
I for an I
Me for a me
And I chase no one
...30 second pause...
Oh shit I just realized another meaning
Its both directive and imperative but also literal alliteral familial genial gene-al
She is not currently congenial cuz of my recent reveal-eee-ul
This is my confessional
My behavior secessional
dalliances transgressional
cross dresser trans personal
just so you know, no longer literal
consequential digressional
Indisretional OH discretional
unilateral situational aggressional messiahal
My sexual desires contralateral
Pansexual isobilateral electrical
too effectual affectual
fractially lexicle
testical and popcicle
my pops family says moter-sickle
I feel a really really funny tickle in my pickle
i was so damn fickle
downright dialed-in diabolically dialectrical dialectical
oh so consent-ual
Oh so cunt sensual
dragoncon sexual
Personally ministerial
My confessional not professional
Not surprisingly congressional
her concessional Intercessional
Ancestors hessional
In the middle of author's writing trip, he saw the instagram notification
SAY NO MORE LETS DO IT 100 - GERIMY PLUMMER
https://www.instagram.com/gpusha_shakur/
https://www.instagram.com/stories/gpusha_shakur/2971663298827670426/
gerimy, oh that made me feel good to my core...i will say no more...you opened the door..I am a lyrical whore..almost sixty-four...years of lore...voice like velour...nor ...... I am rythmic ore...or...not...what does it mattor...... xor...in days of yore..I grew up so poor..now watch me soar...
even if all of this tore....her heart on the floor...missed the bottom drawer...because I was a boor....writing no chore...I can see the distant shore...can't wait for what is in store.......just a literal bore..I am one with the spore …spitting out spoor …playing the viola d'amore ...bull not boar....need someone to adore..me...succor...suck more...suck whore..suck horse...horse suck....horseuck...or suck
Not even my misgendered former son
My middle child with the middle name
The same as the first word of this rhyme
I am playing
I will not chase Chase
H be Chase
not chaste
H and B around it
Dead name confound it
But wait for her
I will wait for her
Even if it never happens
Other things...
Rebecca De Mornay: https://www.imdb.com/name/nm0000360/
This--so much this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZRSNy8DcIDk
State Azure -- Synth GOD - or channeler of godness goodness -- https://www.youtube.com/user/stateazure